Lots of questions. No good answers.

 So. I think we all know I have a food addiction. No news flashes going out there. But lately I am having a very real issue of not wanting to control my eating. Or should I say, overeating.

It's like that voice of reason inside my head has gone on vacation. The logical side of me says "no, it's bad." And the more food obsessed side of me says "shut up!"

What do I do when my eating is out of control and logic takes a holiday? Realistically I know eventually I will gain control again. But right now I don't want control. Right now I have been dreaming about donuts. And I know I will give in to that urge. Or cupcakes or ice cream. You get the idea. Maybe pizza.

I wonder if it's the stress of the holidays. Or general hormonal fluctuations. Or that it's Tuesday. I can't really put my finger on it. But I will eat and I will eat well.

I can't think of much else to add. The fact that it's bothering me must mean my binge eating isn't completely mindless. I just don't know what to do about it. Not today anyway. Fiddle-dee-dee, tomorrow is another day.

I will just entertain you with my latest breakfast out. It was a good one.
  Okay. So here is another one of my weird food rules. If you want to call it that. I will just put this out there. I said I don't like very many fruits. Another one I am rather repulsed by is grapes. They offend me. They have some weird outer peel. they burst open. They look like eyeballs. And the have an acrid, tart flavor. so, yuck.

My dislike for grapes is likely the reason for my dislike of wine. I smell it and all I smell is grape juice. Sometime a bold grape juice, sometimes a dry grape juice. Especially red wine. Some other types of fruity wines are almost drinkable. As long as it is a white wine or a blush. But never red wine. Don't tell me THIS one is different. To me it isn't. To me it is all yucky.

That all being said I confess I like raisins. A lot. So go figure that out. In my defense, they don't taste like grapes. The consistency and texture are also completely different.

So that leads me to breakfast. I had raisin french toast. It actually came with butter and powdered sugar on it that I forgot to tell them to leave off of it. So I wiped off as much as I could. And used sugar free syrup. It was delightful. I sat there alone savoring each and every bite. I kid you not. I made myself enjoy every morsel. It was sweet and savory. I would highly recommend it to anyone ever not quite sure if it would satisfy their craving for a sweet breakfast. 

I also had eggs, which I do love. I had them scrambled loose, one of my favorite ways to eat eggs. And they were quite good as well. But in this case the star of my breakfast was that french toast.

And hazelnut coffee to round out a sweet 4 star breakfast.

I am obsessive. It is obvious I think. But I am not ashamed that I enjoy food. There are a lot of bad things in this world. To derive pleasure from such a necessary activity is sometimes the highlight of my day. So from beginning to end I will enjoy it without regret. Well, maybe a little. We all have to eat. So until next time..

Eat well